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Apr 8Liked by Melanie Deziel

Yes post diagnosis is just a cauldron of emotions. The joy and peace of “ugh I’m not broken” while simultaneously understanding and reliving every terribly horrible thing people have said to you

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Apr 3Liked by Melanie Deziel

This resonates with me so much. Thank you for writing this post and helping to illuminate the sources of past struggles.

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Apr 3Liked by Melanie Deziel

Great post! I’m going through that process too of sifting back through the past and making sense of it anew. Hadn’t thought of it as hindsight but yes it’s like getting a massive dose of hindsight all at once, pretty mind boggling 😂

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Wow, your description of the Baader-Meinhof phenomenon and how it parallels your late autism diagnosis is so powerful. It really hits home how a new perspective can completely change how we view our past experiences.

Your struggle with math and realizing dyscalculia is super relatable. I have dyscalulia, which explains why I cheated my way through math throughout my school years. I was always so ashamed of that but felt less so knowing why I had to do it. Your journey from confusion to clarity is quite inspiring, as is how you’re using your experience to raise awareness and help others. Thanks for sharing this.

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This is all so relatable! I failed my final maths exam and went to repeat it the following year and failed again, it never occurred to me until recently that I might have dyscalculia, I always had horrible teachers for maths and because it takes me a bit longer to process information, they would get so frustrated with me. It was like looking at some sort of alien language, I just couldn't understand it! It's only in the last year or so that I've finally been able to grasp basic fractions, and that's because I had to find a creative way to teach my son whom I home educate. So we're learning together! Thank you so much for writing this :)

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Thank YOU for reading and sharing 💜

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Oof this hits me at my core!! As much as this process makes me cringe and a bit sad, there is a sense of relief that comes with understanding why things were so hard. It's hard to not want to go back in time and comfort your past self from those situations, but I'm grateful for the knowledge and support that's available today to help me move forward. Thank you for sharing your experience and observations, it means more than you know.

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